I'm watching video, documentarys of the horrible events we have come to know as 9/11. And its really, for lack of a better word, sobering me up. I've never questioned why our armed forces are across the world fighting for us, and I've always supported them. Be it Air Force, Army, Marines, Navy - my love and thanks have always gone out to these brave me and women. But watching this footage, I get this ever growing sense of righteous fury, if you will. I wish I could be there now, I wish I could have done something 8 years ago. I don't know if it was Al Quaeda, Bin Laden, terrorism or even our own government, but people need to pay, and pay dearly for this tragedy.

One particular documentary I'm watching is called "9/11 The Falling Man" and I high encourage you, if you ever have the opportunity to watch it, do so. One part however has actually depressed me tho. It is the story of a woman, named Alayne Gentual. She worked in the South Tower and was trapped inside when the second plane hit. The story is told thru an interview with her then husband, Jack Gentual. Jack had received a call upon arriving at work. Alayne was on the other end, and explained the situation. Jack pleaded for her to get down, but she told him she could not, "It was too hot.." Her breathing labored, panic in her voice, Jack tried everything to reassure her, but sensing the urgency of the situation, opted to let her make her escape then stay on the phone. Jack never heard from Alayne again.

I transcribe the rest as said by Jack, for it is his story, and his words need to be heard not mine.

"I know that Alayne was found on the street. In front of the building across from her's. So wether she jumped or fell, I don't know. I believe she was alive when it happened, cause of that phone call. I hoped that she had succumed to smoke but...It doesn't seem likely. It's something I can't know. In some ways, it just might be the last element of control that you have. Everything around you is happening, and you can't stop it. But this is something that you can do. And to be out of the smoke and the heat...And to be out in the air...It must have felt like flying...."

I'm not one to be sappy, or emotional, but that last line really got to me. Whether she did jump, or if she was thrown from the collapsing building or lost footing. We will never know. But I feel for this man, Jack, who lost his world that day.

Jack, I know you'll never see this, but for whats its worth, 8 years later, people care. And my thoughts and prayers will be with you until you meet Alayne again.

Goodnight, Deviants